Don't ever take things for granted ;

我比想象中爱你。

woke up at 1plus today? slack&watch Vcds. went to my Godmum's house around 6plus. chatted with her, watch Tv&had Dinner there. I really love going to my Godmum's house. hahah. after that, home around 9pm. I'm bored, really bored. Erinna is at Taiwan with her Family. nobody to accompany me go out. LOLS.

I dont know what's happening to me nowadays. I cant sleep at night when it's already veryvery late. for goodness sake. plenty of things running through my mind. sigh... times at night, I really wish to talk to someone, but I have no idea who I can call. I miss him, but I dont know what to do. I find myself so fcuking useless. was looking through his messages last night, yesh, those 2years' ago messages. call me stupid or whatsoever. but I just cant help it.

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Blog Song, 我比想象中爱你, by JS.
super nice please. XD

飞的越远越看不见
你阳光下灿烂的笑脸
在天跟海之间那条界线
慢慢的走远
你曾经是我的地平线

你有没有一点想念
我们一起去年的夏天
有种爱的感觉在心里面
那么的强烈
而这一切好象只是昨天

我才发现我比想象中爱你
只是一时不小心错过了你
每当夜深人静
我诚实的分析我自己
还是不可否认地
我比想象中爱你

兰花掠过沙滩变静
我又看见我们的脚印
如果遇见幸福的机率
有千万分之一
不顾一切也要找回你

我才发现我比想象中爱你
只是一时不小心错过了你
每当夜深人静
我诚实的分析我自己
总会从梦中惊醒
还是不可否认地
我比想象中爱你

终于发现我比想象中爱你
只是一时不小心错过了你
每当夜深人静
我诚实的分析我自己
总会从梦中惊醒
还是不可否认地
我比想象中爱你

Walk away, Loved. 11:23:00 PM `

Enchanted.

ohwell, woke up at 1plus today. called Hweehan, wanted to meet her up after her work around 330pm to eat then go school for Band. but well, Xujun said that she's at Bugis&asked me whether wanna go meet her after her interview anot. I agreed&so meet up with Hweehan around 4plus, reached Bugis around 5pm. meet up with Junny, ate at Long John. I ate one&a half set of combo1. LOLS. cause I havent eaten anything for the day. &Jun didnt want to eat the whole combo, so yeah. after eating, walked around Bugis street as Jun wanna look for Black&White heels. but in the end, she only managed to get a pair of Black one as the White one didnt have her size. so yeah. parted with her around 6plus as she have to go her Grandparents' house. Hweehan&I decided to catch a movie, cause we are like broke, it's impossible for us to go shopping. hahaha. bought tickets for Enchanted which is at 720pm. walked around Junction to kill time, saw Wanjie&gang, at first I didnt saw them, but I feel there's people looking at me. so I turned, &I was like ehs, hello. LOLS. I think they will find my reaction funny. but well, I was in deep thoughts at that moment thats why. after that, in to the Cinema. &yesh, the movie is nice, Fairytale. if only Life is like that. hahaha. True Love Kiss. well, after movie around 9plus. headed home, &Mum cooked porridge again, so yeah, had my Dinner.

I seriously need a job, I got plenty of things to buy.
Or any kind soul willing to get them for me? LOLS.

Walk away, Loved. 11:46:00 PM `

A Urge.

I'm here to blog, but I dont know what to blog about. LOLS. life is really boring I must say. sigh... home the whole day yesterday. woke up at 12plus today. watch Vcds, bath&stuff. when I was about to leave the house, it's raining cats&dogs. argh. left house around 3plus. went Chap Lao to eat Fish Slice Soup with rice, alone. LOLS. well, after that, bus-ed to school for Band practice. my section all seems to be falling sick? I hope they will get well soon. practice as per normal till 9plus. bus-ed home&had Porridge, my Mum cooked beforehand&I just warmed it. hahah. it would be great if my Mum is able to cook everyday. XD I love home-cooked food. I dont know why. hahaha.

What the point of giving so much when I know I wouldnt get anything in return?
Sigh...

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my Blog Song, 我会好好的, by Cyndi.

我会好好的花还香香的
时间一直去回忆真美丽
我是想着你一直想着你
你在我心底变成了秘密

不要说你爱我你想我
如果你的心里没有这么做
只是勉强的敷衍我
我知道了会很难受
我要你默默走不回头
我会清楚明白你要的是什么
无须勉强的安慰我说奇怪的理由

到现在还是深深的
深深的爱着你
是爱情的友情的都可以
那是我心中的幸福
我知道它苦苦的

不要说你爱我你想我
如果你的心里没有这么做
只是勉强的敷衍我
我知道了会很难受
我要你默默走不回头
我会清楚明白你要的是什么
无须勉强的安慰我说奇怪的理由

到现在还是深深的
深深的爱着你
是爱情的友情的都可以
那是我心中的幸福
我知道它苦苦的

我会好好的花还香香的
时间一直去回忆真美丽
我是想着你一直想着你
你在我心底变成了秘密

到现在还是深深的
深深的爱着你
是爱情的友情的都可以
那是我心中的幸福
我知道它苦苦的

到现在还是深深的
深深的爱着你
是爱情的友情的都可以
那是我心中的幸福
我知道它苦苦的

要给你远方的祝福
我知道它苦苦的

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Walk away, Loved. 11:51:00 PM `

Something's Missing.

well, was on the phone with Erinna, Hweehan, Nancy&Karmen last night due to some argument&misunderstanding till around 5am. For Goodness Sake. it's the first time we chatted till early in the morning. LOLS. but well, everything is fine now&I hope no one brood over it. our Friendship is strong yeah. (: today, woke up at 2plus. take a look at my phone, I have 6 missed calls&2 received messages&guess what, all is from one person, Erinna Lin. LOLS. I dont know why the hell she wake up so early when we all slept so late. so called her, &she said that she promised her younger Sister to bring her out but her Mum dont allow her to bring her out alone so she wanted me to accompany her. well, I said okae so prepared&stuff. meet her&her Sister at their house there around 3plus. took bus153 to Kovan. went Kfc to eat first as I havent eaten anything. LOLS. saw Mdm Soo there with a woman. hahah. after eating, went to do the dont know what at 2nd Level as Erinna promised her Sister. hahaha. her Sister did a big one while Erinna&I each did a small one. after doing, it's already 5plus6pm. headed Bugis to take Neo-prints, it turn out pretty nice. hahah. then meet up with Kendrick&Junjie as I need to pass them the Concert tickets. after that, the 5 of us cabbed back to Erinna's house. bring her Sister home as she needs to have her Dinner. Erinna gave me one pair of heels as she feels that she wear not very nice? around 8pm, we headed off to Singapore Post, cause Erinna said she didnt went there before? LOLS. she ask me to ask Hweehan along so meet her there. then headed Foodcourt to eat. after eating, the guys went off then the three of us took bus135 to my place. let Erinna try afew pairs of heels as she's going Taiwan on Thursday&she needs covered heels. so yeah, she took one pair. hahaha. after that, around 10pm, pei Erinna go take bus&Hweehan went home.

on the way to Bugis.

Erinna suggested us to each take with our "artpiece".

isnt she cute?! LOLS. oh anyway, her name is Elisa.

Socks-Erinna, Santa Claus-Meizhen, Butterfly-Elisa. hahaha.

I hope you will cheerup&dont brood over the past.
You know I'm always here for you.
<3

Walk away, Loved. 11:30:00 PM `

Nothing Impress me.

seeing some fcukers' actions just make me wanna puke. people who wanna act as if they are good people also sucks. BOOTLICKERS&BETRAYERS! I pity them. LOLS.

24 November, Saturday.

met up with Hweehan around 2pm at my house downstairs then took bus to Kovan. meet with with Robin&Jiandi to pass them the Concert tickets. after that, ate at JiaYiBinDing with Hweehan. as usual had the Fried Rice. then Xumin messaged Hweehan asking her whether want to play Badminton anot. went PLCC to check whether there's any time slot for the court. but there's none. so meet up with Xumin around 5pm&headed to my house downstairs, a public Badminton court. they played while I play with Hweehan's Psp. around 15mins or so, I went home changed&get water for them. I'm such a good friend. LOLS. they played till 6plus? I guess. hahah. went home to put bottles then went to Aljunied there for early Dinner. hahah. after eating, Xumin wanna get a haircut. so accompany her to one Salon. &she had her haircut. it cost her $12. well, accompany her to take bus then went Hweehan's house to get Disc then home around 8pm.

25 November, Sunday.

a normal Sunday for me. woke up around 11am. had Breakfast, slack then watch Vcd till 6plus7pm. get ready for Dinner. so headed downstairs for Dinner with Parents&Niece. well, home after that.

Walk away, Loved. 10:11:00 PM `

It's just Unexpected.

woke up around 11am today. Bath&stuff, meet up with Hweehan at my house downstairs, went Chap Lao to eat then headed to ToaPayoh. went for interview at Levi's building. then went ToaPayoh interchange. walkwalk&stuff. headed home around 3plus. around 4plus, headed to school for Band. &well, practice ended around 9plus&home.

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I thought you were Different from the Others.
I thought you wouldnt be so Unreasonable.
I thought you know me better than those people.
But now I know, I was wrong, so wrong.
Since you dont even care about our Friendship already, why should I?
Turn the Whole Band Against me,
You definitely have the power to.
It wouldnt be something new to me,
It wouldnt be the first time.
It have been happening for Years.
So I think just One more month, I can definitely overcome it.
Why should I tell my Friends what you have done?
To make them stay by me?
I dont see a need there.
True friends will never leave no matter what.
I mess with you?
When did I&why should I?
Do I benefit from that?
Why are you so against me?
So what if you have more friends?
I should be afraid?
LOLS.
What's so good about having so many friends when not all of them might be trustworthy.
I Bad-mouth your friends?
Fine if that's what you wanna say.
But kindly tell me who, people I dont like?
Then, ask yourself, didnt you ever bad-mouthed your own friends too?
Come on lah, I dont know what got into you.
What you gain for being so against me?
More friends? I bet so.
Fine, continue with what you want then.
A war? Up to You.
It's just One more month.

I hate Bootlickers&Betrayers. fcukoff.

Walk away, Loved. 11:06:00 PM `

It's Always Our Fault.

sigh... today is a bad bad day. it's been a long time since I get so pissed off. say what you want, think what you want, I know my attitude sucks, but I think we are not always at fault. okae, let me complain alright. I just felt unfair.

woke up at 1230pm, bath&stuff. headed for school for Sectional. reach school around 2pm, had Sectional till 4pm. then headed for Dinner with my section. as we received a message from our SL yesterday "Hey,ppl. Tmr 2pm-optional sectionals. COMPULSORY SECTIONALS for those who did not come for sectionals for monday and tuesday. 4 to 530pm-dinner and slack and break time. 530pm-fall in and get ready for practice. this will happen for the next three days. Compulsory sectionals for all on thursday and friday." ohwell, we are just following what our SL told us&nobody told us about the whatsoever briefing okae. well, headed back to school around 5plus. fall in&guess what, we are punished. I mean not all, but just those who didnt stay for the briefing before Dinner were punished. Hello, you all didnt say anything like we know you will give us a briefing? yahyah, everything is our fault, we should know, we should have asked, isnt that what you guys wants?

but hey, mind what you say girl, what does it means by "this may be new to the juniors&mayb new to some seniors because you are too slack for the last few years." you said you&him will bring up the discipline of the Band, that sounds as if the ex-Majors arent doing a good job because you said that the seniors are slack, is that what you mean? I got to say, the previous batches' discipline were much more better than now okae. I didnt want to lose my temper infront of the whole Band just now, cause I know even if I do, I will lose out because I'm just a member[though I'm older]&you are a Major, whatever you say will be right, yesh? forget it man, we will blame it on ourselves. why do we have to compare ourselves with what other Majors do to their Bands? what does us got to do with your Nco Camp?

~~somehow, if you continue like that, I doubt you will get the whole Band's respect~~ ~~girl.~~

after walking/running round the school, practice till 9plus&home around 10plus.

fcukfcukfcuk, I'm seriously pissed off.
Being sick is already terrible, but you people made my mood worse.

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I bet you are talking about me, arent you?
I ruined our Friendship?
I know my attitude sucks.
But come on,
who wouldnt get pissed off when you are punish for something so ...?
Even Azmir, WeiSing are.
But well, I know you are doing your job.
I'm not holding any grudges against you.
I just dont like the way she say things.
Well, nevermind.
My Fault Then, I'm Sorry.
I Bad-mouthed your Friends?
Did I?
If you say so, WHO?!
Come on, tell me what wrong I did.
I've never wanted this Friendship to end this way.
Sigh...

Walk away, Loved. 11:15:00 PM `

Blow Wind Blow.

woke up at around 11am today&I've got the urge to get out of the house. LOLS. called Hweehan&she's still sleeping. so in the end, meet up with her around 330pm at my house downstairs, took bus135 to Amk Hub, meet up with friend R(I'm not allowed to reveal this person's name, so yah). went to watch the movie Bratz at 440pm. the movie is really nice I should say, its all about Friendship. after movie, the 3of us walked around the Mall at the same time to look for jobs. hahah. after that, went Mac to sit down&chat. we chatted for more than an hour? hahah. &home around 10pm.

Band tomorrow&yesh, Jasline Yeo is finally going! woohoo~

Holiday is really bored. sigh...
Friends are all having their own lives now.
It's either work or relationship.
But me, Lifeless.

爱收了又给，我们都不太完美。

Walk away, Loved. 10:50:00 PM `

Baby, Come Home.

was woken up by my Mum around 12pm. had Lunch then slack all the way till around 5plus. prepared&stuff. out for Dinner with my Family around 7plus. Sister, Brother-in-law&Niece were also with us as tomorrow is my Mum's Birthday. went Hougang Ave1 there for Dinner. the fish was really nice I must say. hahah. was really full after that&that meal cost $79. Sister paid. hahahah. after that, went Watsons as my Sister wanna get Contact Lens solution&home around 9plus.

Happy Birthday in advance to my Mum, Vanessa Teo&Qiaowei. their Birthday happens to fall on the same day, 19 November. (:

I'm still sick, anyone can cure sore throat, running nose&cough asap? >.<

Walk away, Loved. 10:00:00 PM `

Horrible, Terrible, Vegetable.

because I was caught in the big rain on Wednesday morning, I'm like sick now, very sick. been sneezing&coughing away, a very terrible sore throat. it's super duper painful, totally unbearable okae. the moment I sneeze or cough, there will be tears in my eyes, look as if I'm crying but I'm not. it's just that it's uncontrollable. tissue is something I have to bring with me wherever I go for now. sigh...

G7! (:

yesterday was the last day of Tprawks. it was a fun&enjoyable "camp", I dont deny but because I wasnt feeling well&I have to go for Band today, I went home around 8plus when everything is supposed to end at 10pm.

I look extra, I know. LOLS.

today, woke up at 8am. went to school for Band. everything was as usual. after Band, meet up with Hweehan. went Hougang Mall for Dinner&back home around 8pm.

I'm sorry for such a short post as I'm not feeling well.
anyone willing to bring me to the Doctor? >.<

Walk away, Loved. 8:49:00 PM `

Music without Notes.

13 November, Tuesday.

yesterday was the last paper for Poa students. so, met up with Erinna at around 12plus&headed to her house while waiting for Karmen&Chrystal to be done. they were like all late please. LOLS. Erinna&I was like hungry. hahah. so met up with Karmen, Chrystal&Nancy at Serangoon Mrt Station at around 2pm. headed Vivo, went for Lunch&met up with Hweehan. its the very first time that Hweehan wear skirt while going out with us okae. hahaha. went to look for Jasline&Meishan as they were working there. after that, we watched The Game Plan which is at 445pm, well, all of them havent watch yet except me. so I have to cater to what they want right? hahah. since its a nice show too. hahahah. after watching, around 7pm. headed Compass, went to look for Peixuan. I miss her like alot okae. then went up to Foodcourt, take away food&headed to Xujun's house as her leg is burned by Iron. hope she will recover soon. &well, home around 10plus. slept around 12plus.

14 November, Wednesday.

woke up at 650am. I'm like freaking tired&my legs are aching like crazy. LOLS. bath&stuff, meet up with Hweehan around 740am&its raining cats&dogs please. reached Temasek Polytechnic at around 845am. meet up with Karmen&Mingyi&there we go to TpRawks. hahah. was fun afterall. &yesh, anyone knows a Korean Singer by the name of Li An? hahahah. seriously, nobody knows who he is. anyway, he was in Tp today to like entertain us? hahahah. so the "Camp" ended around 7pm, home around 8pm.

Walk away, Loved. 9:11:00 PM `

Ignorance.

Nice view uh? hahahah.

slept at around 2plus last night. woke up at 11plus today. bath&stuff, headed to my Godmum's house. then around 2pm, meet up with Hweehan&headed Bugis. had Lunch at Long John then headed Bugis Street to look for Jobs. interviewed for 3jobs. shall see which one call me first? hahah. after that, around 4plus. went City Hall, walked around Marina Square, Suntec City&Esplanade. headed home around 7plus8pm.

Baby, I would Love to Stay by Your Side Forever.

Walk away, Loved. 10:02:00 PM `

The Importance.

The Emptiness Within Me.

9 November, Friday.

okae, back to yesterday first. woke up at around 11plus, called Engkeat&we met up around 1pm at my house downstairs. headed Aljunied, meet Hweehan, had my Lunch. then went Salon, Belong. cut&reboned my hair. but somehow my hair looks longer now? hahahah. well, it cost me $112. I gonna start saving again. Engkeat had a haircut too. after everything, its around 5plus. Engkeat is nagging like dont know what okae. LOLS. headed Bugis with Engkeat, wanted to catch a movie but there's no nice movie there, so we walked to Shaw Tower. &we catched The Game Plan at 720pm. the show is really nice, I must say. hahah. after movie, went to take bus100 home. saw Kenneth&Zhiwei on bus. hahah. they were very noisy please, especially Zhiwei, talking like as if he's at home. LOLS. well, reached home around 10plus&slept around 1am.

10 November, Saturday.

well, today. woke up around 745am. bath&stuff, went to school for Band. practice was alright. it's really great to be playing my Flute again. hahah. I missed it okae. somehow, I can express what on my mind with it. hahah. well, Lunch Break at 12pm, had Lunch with my Flautists. so sad that Jasline wasnt here. it been quite some time since I last saw her. hopefully we will see each other on next practice. hahah. after Lunch, back to school&practice continued. &ended around 530pm, headed home.

I'm still not being myself.
How to say,
Mayb not many will notice.
As I still put a smile on my face,
I still laugh like I'm perfectly fine.
But who really knows how I feel.
I'm feeling really empty.
Nothing can really cheer me up.
I dont know what's going on in me.
I feel like crying,
But I dont wish to.
Sigh...

Upon receiving your message today,
I smiled with tears welled up in my eyes,
I wonder,
How Important am I to you.

Walk away, Loved. 8:32:00 PM `

It's all Fated.

Mayb it's just God making a Fun out of Us.

I'm so not being myself today. I'm letting my mind go wild, I'm losing all confidence, I'm losing all faith. I feel as if I'm alone standing in this world, fighting against everything. I'm feeling so dead. dont ask me why, I also cant find the reason why. I need someone to confide in but, I have no idea who to look for. could someone just give me a hug&tell me things will be fine&I will be alright? sigh...

back to today. woke up at 12pm, Mum woke me up to have Lunch. after eating, messaged Erinna, thought of meeting her but well, in the end didnt. feeling kinda lazy to go out&stuff. Sister came over around 2plus3pm. chatted&stuff. &she left after awhile. slacked till around 5plus6pm, prepare&out for Dinner with my Parents. went Aljunied Mac for Dinner. after eating, went to buy some necessities&home around 8plus. tv&now blogging. well, tomorrow gonna cut&rebond hair. stupid Ang Eng Keat didnt reply my message. argh. LOLS.

You might be So Fine without me there.
But, I wouldnt be Too Good without you here.

Walk away, Loved. 10:39:00 PM `

Isolated.

okae, I'm feeling kinda emo now. &I dont know why. LOLS. somehow I feel that you are so faraway. it seems that our world will never meet again. I miss you boy, I really do. sigh...

was woken up by Nancy Ng's call this morning at 10am! oh, that's hell. LOLS. cause I only managed to sleep at around 3am. argh. she wanted me to help her dye hair. so meet up with Hweehan around 1130am, headed Heartland, meet up with Nancy&Erinna. went JiaYiBinDing to eat, Shannon&Jose joined us also. but only the girls ate while the guys are playing Psp. LOLS. after eating, parted with the guys, went Watsons to get hair dye&headed Nancy's house. helped Nancy&Hweehan with their hair. though the colour wasnt very obvious. hahaha. &well, slacked at Nancy's house, then headed Hougang Mall at around 6plus. Nancy&Erinna went Serangoon for an Job Interview while me&Hweehan stayed at Hougang Mall. went Gelare for Cheese Cake. it's been a long time since I last ate Cheese Cake there. hahahah. after eating, sat there to wait for time to pass. saw Hoki&Karmen. XD LOLS. well, after that around 7plus8pm, met up with Erinna&Nancy again for Dinner at Foodcourt. Erinna was running a fever all of a sudden, 38degrees okae. so after eating, accompany her to the Doctor&she's alright now. (: &well, home around 10pm.

Double Twin. LOLS.

Spot the Similarities&Differences.

Baby I love you, I will never let you go.
But if I have to, Boy I think that you should know.
All the time we had, will Never be Replaced.
&I promise that you will Never be Replaced.
I miss you.

Walk away, Loved. 11:58:00 PM `

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What Animal Were You In Your Past Life?